I really don't feel like going back to work tomorrow... I mean I am really lucky to have the "job" that I have but... there's just some things about it I don't like :(For one thing, I'm expected to be a "role model" for my troops :P That's real great, considering I'm wearing a stupid mask when I'm working. I have never asked the powers-that-be in the establishment, but I don't think they'd take too nicely to the idea of what I do after hours. Anyways, I think that being responsible for guiding 100+ people sometimes really gets to me. At this point in time, I don't really want to stand up in front of them and do the whole motivational thing...:( Especially since not that many of them are in the whole "I wanna be motivated" frame of mind.
And what's worse, I can't really pretend I'm somewhere else and that the people I'm supposed to watch over are in a different situation. I might just say something stupid and out of place... Sometimes, when I'm talking to them, I kinda wonder if my own magical roots are starting to show. Like suddenly weird shadows will appear and I'll turn into a black-robed maniac.
I managed once to catch my own reflection when I was having a past life flashback, in the ghostly image on the glass was an expression I have never seen before. It wasn't creepy because at the back of my mind, I know what is happening, but still, I was breathing a sigh of relief that no one I knew saw it.
It could also be that, after having a break for so long, I'm not really in the working groove. Whatever it is, I am really feeling reluctant... Also I have to get back to sleeping normal hours. Haiz...
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